RIFTS Campaign Discussion

It's the map titled "Facility".

It's all one premade map, so there aren't actually any individual tiles. If you need to resize the map to make the lighting work better, feel free to do so. I don't think there's anything dependent on map size.

I'm being a jacka***. I'm being a b****. For getting tired of always being the villain, even when I actually do something good that has good results. I didn't cause the timeskip. I gave people chances to do stuff. I didn't force anyone to check out that chest. But I'm not only being blamed for crap, I'm cursed at? Fine. That's the last time I ever come up with a plan.

... Thank you, Malefio. For standing up for me. That means more to me than you could know.

Mystic, I'm sorry this ended like this. I'm going to watch some YT vids and go to bed.

I should've been way more tactful approaching that... And even though I was... furious when Neo just left, I shouldn't have been saying things like that. Being mad is... is justification for being a piece of ****, but it doesn't make it right.

And once again, just when I think we're starting to move towards reconciling, it all goes up in smoke. My fault, this time. Nice one, dumbass... And I've been working hard on something I thought Neo would appreciate, too. And plotting to push Ava and Lyon together... Now it all feels empty. And stupid. Like me. Fitting.

And goddammit, no matter what you think of me Emppy, that includes you. I want all my friends back. I'm so tired of tip-toeing around the Verse.

.... I'm laying here crying over this, and you don't think I'm being genuine? You think I enjoy fighting with the few people in the entire world I once considered true friends? You haven't exactly made things easy for me, have you? I'm not the only one to blame- people thinking I am is exactly what got us here in the first place. But fine. I'm simply too tired to try anymore. I'll leave you alone.

CDM, sleep. You need to rest. Try to put it all out of your mind, if only for a little while. You need sleep.

I don't want people to think I just started being a dick for no reason, so now that I've calmed down I want to say things properly.  I know Emmpy was just making a stupid joke that didn't mean anything, but it really started ringing true.  I felt like I was being ignored.  First, we were in the middle of an RP thing that Neo told us to pause while he fixed his mic and we never got back to it.  Then I got left behind on the wrong map and was really confused what people were talking about, and I couldn't figure it out until someone said to just pretend that Crow was moving his token - not asking why I wasn't, just saying to pretend I was.  There were a lot of things I wanted to do but didn't try because other people were doing things and I wanted to, as Mal put it, let them have their moment in the sun and also because I didn't want to overwhelm Mystic worse than he already was.  I did try to join that card game, but it got lost in the shuffle.  I did try to gather some information.  I got my first question answered about an hour later after asking 5 times.  I had others I wanted to ask, but I just let that go.  The moment I really checked out was when I had to break out my mic and talk over people saying "hey, I'm trying to react to things that happened quite a while ago, can we stop advancing things so my character can get caught up?"  I didn't want to do anything big.  I just wanted to say that if Celica noticed the confusion, she was going to politely excuse herself and calmly walk out of town to wait with her robot.  That's it.  But in the time it took me to type the roll command for a listen check, someone jumped in and started moving things ahead again.  And I waited for a bit to see if things would come back to me, but I had to interrupt again just to find out if I passed the check.  I said something to the town guards that got ignored, but it was apparently important enough to retcon in a response once it got pointed out.  In what was admittedly a stupid, passive-aggressive move, I marched my power armor into town just to see if there would be a response.  Not only was there not, a member of the party had to be told I was sitting right next to him.  And when I was explaining why I didn't want to go into the dungeon, someone else had to point out me saying it.  And all this was while intentionally limiting what all I was doing.  So I wasn't just being a dick for no reason, I had plenty cause to be frustrated.

That said, my behavior was absolutely unacceptable.  I lashed out at Neo because of our little fight, which isn't fair to him.  Being tired is no excuse.  What I did was utterly inexcusable, and I'm sorry I ruined the session.  It was fully my responsibility it happened.  If anyone wants me to drop out after my behavior last night, I understand.

Mystic, I gave you some advice last night, but it was while being a dick and I need to go back and do it properly.  Even if it feels completely insincere and *****y considering what happened.  Because it's something important and I really should have before...  Dealing with party splits.  It's one of the most potentially overwhelming things for an inexperienced GM.  My first session became an utter ****show when the party split.  To the point people died because of my incompetence running it.  It was Paranoia, though, so that's not a big deal...  But the next session, I brought a ruler and some extra tokens.  When the party split, I put all the tokens at the start of the ruler.  As a group did stuff, I moved a token up to represent time passing.  If one group either got so-and-so far ahead or I'd been working with them for a few minutes, I'd put them on hold and move to the group in the back.  I don't use a physical setup anymore, but I still envision it basically like that when the party splits.  It's good to occasionally pause and switch groups, even if it's just to go around and say "Hey, are your guys still just sitting and waiting?  OK, good." and jump back.  Don't be afraid to tell people to shut up because you're trying to focus on one group.  Especially until you start getting more experienced at moving between groups.